Oct 30, 2010

I love them more than chocolate...

I love my kids.
Doesn't the title just about sum it up?
I mean come on, you all KNOW how much i love chocolate, right?
But seriously...
I probably don't say it enough. Scratch that- I DON'T say it enough.
Not how much i love chocolate, how much i love them.
I tell them...all the time. But to everyone else? Probably not.
I sure complain enough about how hard it is, this being a mom thing.
Although I prefer to call it brutal honesty...
But I don't talk enough about the other side of it that I feel.
The completely intoxicating and overwhelming love that I have in my little girls.

Like this one..

She's pure sunshine.
That smile...it fills my heart. It's always there to brighten my day, just when I need it the most.
The way she loves, it's magical.
I could learn a thing or two from her.
She sees the beauty in everything. Broken pieces of glass or rocks, they aren't what you think, they are treasure. Holey leaves aren't damaged, they are amazing. Dandelions aren't weeds, they are beautiful flowers that she picks just for me.
And she sees the beauty in me, although I'm more than incredibly flawed.
I love her much more than chocolate, I love her more than any word in the English dictionary could describe.
But still I fail her.
And it breaks my heart.
But then she looks up at me with that smile, as if I never did anything wrong, wraps her little arms so tightly around me and proclaims "I love you so much, you're the best mommy in the whole world".
My heart breaks again.
Then I am reminded of God's unconditional and amazing love for us. For me. Though I am imperfect. And I thank him for his still, strong voice, spoken through my little girl. The precious gift he gave to me. ME. Surely I didn't deserve it, but he thought enough of me to think that I did.

And this one...

My Madelyn, God how I love her.
Those piercing blue eyes, I could swim in them. I even asked her if I could have them and she said no. =)
She's turning 3 next week (gasp) and her personality has just started to blossom this past year, and boy does she have a big personality.
She's fire and ice, that one.
Terrible 2's has over worn it's welcome in our house, let's just put it that way.
Everyday I watch her navigate through this world, through her emotions and her feelings, trying to find out who she is.
She's more quiet, shy, and reserved. Until she lets you in.
But through her tough exterior I see love.
With her little hugs, kisses and more and more I love you's everyday, she melts my heart.
"Cozy me, mommy" she'll say. God how I wish I could box them up and keep them this little forever.
How on earth did I get this lucky...

Oct 22, 2010

More pumpkins!!

I told you I love the pumpkin patch, so we took the girls again last night since our trip to Roloff farms ended with no pumpkins and too much harsh light to get any great pictures. It was fun and so much more relaxed, I'm glad we went!

As you know you gotta pose in all the cut outs...

And the girls gotta pick out their baby punkins...

And why not have a tractor race!

And i gotta take pictures of pretty sunflowers...

You gotta see how big you are compared to last year...

We lasso'd some bulls.. (or Bekah did)

We jumped off bales of hay...

We posed in the apple orchard for a cute pic...

And of course you gotta have that PERFECT pumpkin patch picture, and I believe we got it! heehee

It was a great evening and we topped it off with dessert BEFORE dinner, which the girls LOVED! We didn't carve the pumpkins yet, but we will probably do that Sunday night. Stay tuned!

Roloff Farms

It's been a busy couple months and i haven't really sat down to blog. So for anyone who has been anxiously awaiting my posts (yeah right-haha) I'm terribly sorry.

Bekah is LOVING school. And she's doing great. She's learning sign language and over the past week or so she's started reading. Not actual books yet, but words and signs. And we'll sit and write out words and short sentences for her on the doodle pro and she is reading that. So it'll be no time before she's reading a book! I can't believe it. I'm such a proud mom.

Maddie is just..Maddie. She's giving me a run for my money lately, I'll just leave it at that. : ) But I love her! She's getting so big, it's crazy. She's turning 3 in just a couple weeks. Where did the time go?!

Russel celebrated his 30th birthday last weekend. I threw a surprise party for him with all our friends from church and small group. We had a good time! I suck and didn't snap any pictures! (sigh) Don't get angry, I didn't have a lot of time between him leaving and everyone coming in and getting in place and decorating real quick!
But other than that we've just been enjoying what's left of the sunshine, because the gloom and doom is just around the corner, I can feel it creeping in. :(

I love the fall time here, the weather feels great and everything is so beautiful. We've taken a couple trips to the pumpkin patch over the last week, that's my favorite fall thing to do. The girls always have such a blast. First we went to Roloff Farms. If you watch TLC's Little People Big World you will know what that is. And I saw Mrs. Roloff herself! It was a nice farm, but verrrry busy, as you could imagine, and for the hour drive there and back, wasn't quite worth it in my book. We didn't buy pumpkins there, the lines were so long but I snapped some photos, the girls rode a pony, fed some goats, and we walked through some pumpkin house like 6 times, Maddie loved it. She kept asking to go in the scary house again!

Mama Roloff!

Maddie's first pony ride!

I even managed to get in a couple pictures again. I'm working on it..